Just went into the new cg W238 and sat together with them. Wow, they were full of energy and hyped up haha. Had fun fellowshipping with them at macau express and a movie "make it happen" in vivocity. Shiok sia!
Then afterward, sent some of them to bugis so that my fren Janis can also meet up with her frens. After that, went to jumbo seafood at Dempsey Road ( Tanglin area) to eat with CHEC guys. Wow the food is fabulous and we ordered so much that we didn't have space for ben & jerry's!! At least had fun eating and fellowshipping with different ppl.
As I was talking with my new leader, I realised alot of things that I'm weak at personally. For example, My emotions is like a playful lady who just fell in love with another guy. I could not keep "her" in control till I win her back. So many times won "her" but "she" managed to slip away. Too bad I can't get the attention from my emotions till bad things come and "she" come begging me to keep her in. Now I win "her" again and I'm in command! Let see if my command over my emotions will last eternally.
God is moulding me at this period of time as He has great plans and visions. I too realised God has put a TREMENDOUS amount of faith into us to make IT happen. So in this one year, I am aiming to be a leader in places where God is calling me to. No longer I'll drop the ball, no longer I'll back out, but the more I want to stretch myself to the limitless limits despite what my body, soul might say. My spirit will reign with the Holy Spirit inside my body, soul merging with spirit and as the soul prospers so will prosperity come into life more abundantly above all we can imagine.
So therefore to be able to maximise my potential, I may go on a 9-month vow (although it is not in flow with what pastor had preached about) . God is setting a new generation who will impact the next generation. I WANT to be part of that generation! PTL!
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Saturday, September 6, 2008
just watched a movie on crunchyroll.com. This movie is in japanese, with title "Platonic ***" and it has a wonderful plot. Very touching indeed.
Two people of different backgrounds. the girl just got gang-raped by her classmates, and wanted to commit suicide while the guy's sister committed suicide because of bullies. the girl, Aoi Kadokura, suddenly received a sms from a person named Toshi. A sms containing birthday greetings, and thanks for her birth except it is sent to Ai. Aoi took a step back into the safety realms. the guy's Toshi was going to kill the bullies but received a reply from Aoi. He was shocked as he dropped the knife. Soon both kept in contact trhough sms, as they went onto their ways of life. Aoi went into prostitution while Toshi was working at the disco club. It was one year later they met each other at the club and a blossoming love comes along.
I guess tat I envied Toshi not because of Aoi or anything but of his truthful character. I wasn't tat open with ppl, even i suspected myself.. I can't find my real self which is probably lost during my childhood, my NS or now..
Life is in a situation where I have no U-turn sign anymore.. Perharps I am not fit to be human anyway.. if anyone reading this entry, don't worry I am letting my emotions to run for now..
Two people of different backgrounds. the girl just got gang-raped by her classmates, and wanted to commit suicide while the guy's sister committed suicide because of bullies. the girl, Aoi Kadokura, suddenly received a sms from a person named Toshi. A sms containing birthday greetings, and thanks for her birth except it is sent to Ai. Aoi took a step back into the safety realms. the guy's Toshi was going to kill the bullies but received a reply from Aoi. He was shocked as he dropped the knife. Soon both kept in contact trhough sms, as they went onto their ways of life. Aoi went into prostitution while Toshi was working at the disco club. It was one year later they met each other at the club and a blossoming love comes along.
I guess tat I envied Toshi not because of Aoi or anything but of his truthful character. I wasn't tat open with ppl, even i suspected myself.. I can't find my real self which is probably lost during my childhood, my NS or now..
Life is in a situation where I have no U-turn sign anymore.. Perharps I am not fit to be human anyway.. if anyone reading this entry, don't worry I am letting my emotions to run for now..
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Apology
Thank you brothers who are there with me during the trying times. I know I was too emotional and I could not think straight. For one point, I thought that someone is going to be my partner but it appears to be part of a plan.
Confession to make : I would like to apologize for being such a devil in her life, distracting her with her walk. In return, I should receive the cold treatment, but I would like to ask for her forgiveness and hope to be friends with her once again.
God put me through these tests, to see if I am ready for the next level. AsI just knew that I will be transferring cell group, I realized that a lot of attacks had been laid upon me day after day and I got lost in the action of things. The spiritual level will not be reached if I do not have these tests and trials.
God is our Creator and Finisher of our faith.
Confession to make : I would like to apologize for being such a devil in her life, distracting her with her walk. In return, I should receive the cold treatment, but I would like to ask for her forgiveness and hope to be friends with her once again.
God put me through these tests, to see if I am ready for the next level. AsI just knew that I will be transferring cell group, I realized that a lot of attacks had been laid upon me day after day and I got lost in the action of things. The spiritual level will not be reached if I do not have these tests and trials.
God is our Creator and Finisher of our faith.
Great Vision
What a great vision lies ahead!
A field open for harvest containing fruits from all walks of life, calling me into the centre of the field where no one would go to harvest. There the fruits are of top notch quality and will spread seeds further and further towards north, south, east and west of the field. This should be the place we should harvest, my friends.
The greatest potential in anywhere of the world is the city, town square, your inner being! Protect it and guard it well. I find joy almost everywhere, but the joy inside my inner being is always the best. So let good things come from your heart, soul and mind!
A field open for harvest containing fruits from all walks of life, calling me into the centre of the field where no one would go to harvest. There the fruits are of top notch quality and will spread seeds further and further towards north, south, east and west of the field. This should be the place we should harvest, my friends.
The greatest potential in anywhere of the world is the city, town square, your inner being! Protect it and guard it well. I find joy almost everywhere, but the joy inside my inner being is always the best. So let good things come from your heart, soul and mind!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
back again
It's been two months I last blogged...
Everything in my life got piled up easily and more problems arised ahead of me as I stepped out in faith to do greater works.
Indeed, it was not easy to get by. Anybody would think that I would not have survived the tasks and burdens lying ahead. With the campus ministry, school work, cellgroup, tuition ministry, so many burdens weighing on my shoulders. How I wish I could seek His burden and be relaxed once again.
Yet after all the burdens have been cleared, there is another burden in my heart which I could not shake off so long.. I felt drained and worn out by the previous demands, and now i would say "Give me a break already".
But God is faithful. He renewed my strength from time to time again, facing each day challenges ahead. Be it spiritual attacks or challenging tutorials or even playing guitar for the cell group, God is always there to push me through. I haven't reached the prime of my life and longed for the day to come - serve God with all my life just to hear "my good and faithful servant".
To the people, i would like to thank you guys for being there for me, E435, NTU ministry, CHEC and my family (even though they dunno wat i am doing outside the house).
Praise God for all things that is present in my life.
Everything in my life got piled up easily and more problems arised ahead of me as I stepped out in faith to do greater works.
Indeed, it was not easy to get by. Anybody would think that I would not have survived the tasks and burdens lying ahead. With the campus ministry, school work, cellgroup, tuition ministry, so many burdens weighing on my shoulders. How I wish I could seek His burden and be relaxed once again.
Yet after all the burdens have been cleared, there is another burden in my heart which I could not shake off so long.. I felt drained and worn out by the previous demands, and now i would say "Give me a break already".
But God is faithful. He renewed my strength from time to time again, facing each day challenges ahead. Be it spiritual attacks or challenging tutorials or even playing guitar for the cell group, God is always there to push me through. I haven't reached the prime of my life and longed for the day to come - serve God with all my life just to hear "my good and faithful servant".
To the people, i would like to thank you guys for being there for me, E435, NTU ministry, CHEC and my family (even though they dunno wat i am doing outside the house).
Praise God for all things that is present in my life.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Just went through another camp first time ever NUS-NTU Combined Camp (though not recorded in the history books), The Happening 08!!
Though the prep are tough and hard, the camp has a great atmosphere woah! The locks are set loose and people went crazy, zi high all of a sudden. For those who missed the camp, you are at a loss but u can visit at http://thehappening.blogspot.com. Dead man are revived, dying man healed instantly, and living man flies above haha.
Btw, just came across this video and i was awe-struck because of the optical display and my military background. take a look.
Though the prep are tough and hard, the camp has a great atmosphere woah! The locks are set loose and people went crazy, zi high all of a sudden. For those who missed the camp, you are at a loss but u can visit at http://thehappening.blogspot.com. Dead man are revived, dying man healed instantly, and living man flies above haha.
Btw, just came across this video and i was awe-struck because of the optical display and my military background. take a look.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Back
WOOHOO!
Just a whizz of months past the very days of year 1 in NTU SCBE, and many great things had happened to not only me but the whole of nueve.
From 30th June to 4th July, when the camp committee was in anxiety about the attendance, the freshies were welcomed with fun and activities, making memorable moments on cameras. I was part of the main comm in preparing for the pool games and the beach games.
From driving a small truck to scaring people with my painted face, every single thing has a place in my heart because of not my achievements, nor my subcomm's efforts, but the glory of God. Without Him, I don't think I can pull it through, or even others. Without Him, I may not able to touch the freshmen's lives.
Many in the camp would know that I was down with influenza on second day, yet I continued to do beyond expectations. This is clearly not my strength seriously because it is in my blood to give up things that are hard to achieve. Thank God for His healing miracle and His love that I can die again and be born a new man now.
God gives us life and life abundantly above all we can imagine.
Just a whizz of months past the very days of year 1 in NTU SCBE, and many great things had happened to not only me but the whole of nueve.
From 30th June to 4th July, when the camp committee was in anxiety about the attendance, the freshies were welcomed with fun and activities, making memorable moments on cameras. I was part of the main comm in preparing for the pool games and the beach games.
From driving a small truck to scaring people with my painted face, every single thing has a place in my heart because of not my achievements, nor my subcomm's efforts, but the glory of God. Without Him, I don't think I can pull it through, or even others. Without Him, I may not able to touch the freshmen's lives.
Many in the camp would know that I was down with influenza on second day, yet I continued to do beyond expectations. This is clearly not my strength seriously because it is in my blood to give up things that are hard to achieve. Thank God for His healing miracle and His love that I can die again and be born a new man now.
God gives us life and life abundantly above all we can imagine.
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